I feel like it has been forever since I have been a routine blogger. I don't even know where to start with what has gone on since June. Crap it has been a long time. It started with a med reaction, then two weeks later thinking I was having a heart attack. Docs seem to think coming off the meds sent my heart into a turmoil. No significant damage done but had to take it easy for a long period of time. Of course being in the hospital even overnight for observation made me extremely ill. So for about 3 weeks after I was dealing with upper respiratory infections. No meds were taken because of the heart thing. I am completely off meds again. My body is clear and free of an pills, except for my large doses of vitamins I am taking nothing. I started watching what I eat more carefully. I am so sick of the weight gain from all the steroids and emotional eating. To date I have lost about 20 pounds. I know I have a long ways to go but I am taking it one day at a time and not letting the scale rule me. I still slip up but I am trying not to beat myself up about it as much. Along with all that I was dealing with my son, the amazing Mitchell, having a girlfriend. To make a long story short, she turned into a................. I can't even find the right words. Stalker, psycho, bully. I'll stop there. They started dating in March and lasted until July. But she didn't stop until just a month ago. I had the principal involved and the next step was going to be the cops but the principal was on our side and told the girl if she didn't stop that he would be expelling her. Don't even want to go into details because it is finally behind us, I hope. Mitchell started his 8th grade year in September. Things are going well. He is in basketball again this year and just this weekend has made the traveling team for basketball. My life as I know it is over until the end of March now. Between practices and games plus all the 8th grade stuff he will be doing, I pretty much will have no social life. Not that I had much of one anyways. Mitchell is now 5'10" and weighs about 180. He is the greatest kid. I can't keep up with his teenage social life. He does have a great group of friends. Many of the girls love having him as a friend because they say he is just so open to listen to what they have to say plus it is like having a big brother. He is very protective with the girls. No girlfriends in the near future after this past experience, which is fine with me. I am working part time still at the same office as my husband. I really enjoy it and am so thankful I even have a job. It is really nice to be working with my hubby. We get to see each other more and it is fun to be goofy with each other. There is such a unique set of personalities in the office it is always interesting. One of the girls had a baby in July and now that she is back to work I get to watch the baby one to two days a week. It is fun to spoil him and then send him home. He is so very different to what Mitchell was like. Mitchell was so easy going and carefree. This little guy at only 4 months knows exactly what he wants and get it to him now. His mom and dad are about 16 years younger than my husband and I but we have made some friends for life. Just the greatest couple you would ever want to meet. I have been battling with bronchitis for the past three weeks. Except for the cough I could handle it. The cough is still here and doesn't want to go away. Besides that things are going very well. I can't complain. These past five months or so, I have had a lot of time to think and I don't want to always be crabbing about how I want things better. I need to except what I have and be happy more with it. I am happy with my health and feel good about how I am going about things. Do I want the weight to come off faster, well dah, of course I do but if someone is going to judge me because of my weight then they aren't worth having in my life. Am I still going to be crazy when things don't go according to plan or flip out because I have limited time and want to get a ton of things done and the big one of opening my big mouth when I should stop and think about it first. I'm not saying miracles are going to happen overnight. Some of the big things I want to change in my life are going to take time because I have been a certain way for a very long time. I like to think of myself as very passionate about certain things. One thing I have definitely learned is who my friends are and who sticks by me when times are tough no matter what. Boy, I am getting to deep for myself. I just want to be happy and not take things for granted. Too much of my life has passed me by and I can't take any of it back. My boy is starting high school in less than a year. Where has the time gone. My husband and I looked at each other the other day and said . "We have been together for almost 10 years." Holy Cow! time to stop and smell the roses.
Well, this went into a bit of a rant and I am sorry. Not how I wanted to make my comeback. I'm just trying to be comfortable in my own skin. I'm sure some of you know what that means. I miss my MS blogger buddies. Hope everyone is doing well. I have been trying to keep up with everyone. Well time to get going. I need to get myself off to Mitchell away game. Blog to you all soon.
