Create Balance

If people never did silly things nothing intelligent would ever get done.
-Ludwig Wittgenstein

Fresh Start

I started to create new background to my blog today and I lost everything in trying. I was getting a little frustrated but then figured out what I did. How silly to be so upset over something so small. It got me thinking about how angry I was the other day after getting off the phone with my sons biological father. This man can push my buttons in a heart beat. This is something I am trying to work on as one of my goals for the year. This is probably the one I am having the most difficulty with. I am getting better at the fact that I don't let him pull me into his game. I stay calm on the phone with him, it is when I get off the phone that I vent my anger and disgust. He pulled a doosy the other night but I got some help from Ben & Jerry. Just a bit since I am trying to lose weight again. I need to be on a couch with Ben & Jerry and some help from Ms. Cheese and I think I will be feeling better in no time.
A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult. Proverbs 12:16

Top 10

Ok, for Christmas my son got the home gym he wanted. It is set up in our basement along with the treadmill. I have no excuses not to get in shape myself. I love listening to music and what better way to get motivated than listening to some real upbeat music while working out. So I am asking everyone for their favorite upbeat songs I can put on my mp3 to work out to. I want to come up with a top 10 list. So help me out people. I will share the list when I have it done.

My brain is on Pause

Since my brain feels like it is on pause lately I have been laying low until it decides to kick in again. I have been struggling this past week because I have a issue with my sons band teacher and it is taking every bit of energy I have to deal with it. I will give details later, if I do it now it will take what I have left out of me for the day. There is nothing worse than a teacher who purposely disrespects your child when your child stands up for the rights of themself and other students. I'll leave it at that. We are getting a bit of snow here today. As many of you have commented on your feelings about snow, I love it. Maybe because I don't shovel anymore since Mitchell has taken on that duty. It is getting bitter cold here to so I am staying in for the day and I think I will sit on the couch and just read a book until my son gets home from school so we can bake some cookies. Here is a photo of our yard on the last big snow we had. I have been reading everyone else's blogs, sorry no comments. Hopefully after this long weekend with the family I will be back in the game.

If you don't think about it maybe it will go away

One of the biggest things I hear is don't stress yourself or your MS will act up. PLLEEEEAAASE!
No one ever says how to do it though. I called today to find out where my next months worth of Copaxone shots are. To only here the lady say and don't forget your $20.00 copay. News to me. When did that start? She explained all the details about how I am given a certain amount of money towards the medications so I need to pay somethig or an even larger amount will come out of pocket towards the end of the year. Ok, it all made sense to me but all I can think about is: I need to come up with $140.00 by March for my sons trip to Springfield for school, end of April is school tuition that usually runs around $155.00 becaue of band and technology and our youngest pup needs surgery worth a whopping $1300.00. So 20 bucks right now is alot. Since we moved boundaries here in our school district and not to many people are overworked this year, not to many people are taking off so I haven't even subbed once this school year. I need to work to bring in some money but that seems like a dream come true right now. My husband works his butt off (that is why he doesn't really have one)LOL. This is when I hate MS the most becaue I feel so helpless. I know I can watch what I spend to help out but when you need that extra coming in it doesn't help much. So I am trying to figure out what I can do and of course the brain is on hold right now. I hear that recording of "Please try back again later".

Getting Back on Track

OK, the new year is here and is time for me to get my head out of the fog and put my house & life back in some kind of order. As like so many, finances are tight so I need to focus on our food bill & spending. I usually do pretty well but when there are those days when even getting out of bed is work, who feels like putting a meal on the table. My latest thing is looking at the ads and coupons and trying to plan my week around that. I think I am pretty good at seeing what is in the fridge or cabinets and making something for dinner. Lucky for me Mitchell is not a picky eater. I think alot of that has to do with the fact that I never really gave him baby food. I made his baby food. No smart comments from anyone! It is so simple and not that time consuming plus your baby gets more vitamins from the real thing and again that is why I think he isn't picky. I mean come on have you ever tasted that baby food that comes in a jar. ICK! Then we expect them when they are older to eat a real vegetable because they ate it from the jar. Ok, I am getting off track. I did notice that when I make everything myself instead of store bought my health seemed alot better. Mitchell went to his Aunts house, on his dads side, for the holidays. This woman doesn't know how to cook. She made some potato casserole and it had like 5 sticks of butter ad half a large carton of sour cream. Mitchell came home with the worst stomach ache. So I want to get back to the more healthy eating and still keep the budget low. I have many goals I set for myself. Not just what I want to accomplish in 08 but in my lifetime. Staying as healthy as I can is one of them. Once you get off track it is hard for the average person to get back but with having the ms I think it takes my body so long to adjust and figure out what the heck is going on. So no more quick frustration and I will start one thing at a time. Right now it is the eating more healthy. It has worked in the past for me so lets see what happens.